It Helps
Your comments and prayers mean so much to us both. I (Sarah) perhaps feel it more because I'm generally the one writing and written to, but Gary gains much strength from your care as well. Thank you all for your love. It helps more than you will ever know, and through your kind words on here, in the cards, and in person, I am beginning to see God's love in all of this. Thank you.
posted by Carter Heckman @ 5:07 PM
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9 Comments:
Gary & Sarah,
I pray for you guys every day and will continue for a long, long time because it will take a long, long time for you to heal. I feel a need to share with you a little of my own "story."
When my first husband died unexpectedly (31 years ago & it's still in my memory), I, too, couldn't seem to forgive God for taking him away. He was a high school teacher who was respected and loved by his students & faculty, a Sunday School teacher, active in our church, and a darn good dad. He made a difference in this sad old world. He was 28 years old. I still don't know why God picked him. So many prayers went up for him, too, as so many prayers went up for your little Carter. But, as far as I was concerned, they went unanswered. I, like you, went back to church. But, I didn't sing, didn't want communion, and probably didn't even want to be there. But, I went anyway. And, after a long time, I started to do those things again. I sang, took communion and cried less.
I still don't understand my loss just like I don't understand yours & Gary's. That's something I don't think we'll ever understand.
However, I know Dwight (my husband) touched a lot of lives, just as little Carter touched so many. That has to give us some kind of comfort because that is all we have to lean on right now.
You both will heal, you both will sing again, and when you do, your little boy will be listening. I believe God lets our loved ones "peek at us" every now and then--but that's another story.
Know that I pray for you both. God is listening--He just has to.
Love to you both,
Linda S. (the laundromat gal)
Sarah and Gary,
we all lvoe you very much and i am glad the fog is somewhat lifting so you all can see us now. Carter is a blessed ltlle soul and I find myself talking about him everyday to family, friends, and even strangers. I will forever be changed from this experience much love and prayers....moriah
Dear Sarah and Gary,
My prayers for you continue daily. As a grandmother who kept the hospital vigil with her children and her dying grandbaby (he left the earth 8 years ago today) and who witnessed the agony of his parents' grief, I send you my love.
I agree that you will indeed sing again one day, and will be able to accept communion and be able to participate fully in the life of the church. I am glad that you are already finding your way....healing takes awhile, and as you know, is marked by 2 steps forward and 1 step back.
Your hearts right now are like shattered glass, and it is difficult to think that you will ever be able to move beyond this terrible pain. But eventually, your broken hearts will be healed and enlarged with compassion, understanding and love, and your lives will be like the pieces of colored glass in the church windows, reflecting God's glory and love. You will be wonderful witnesses to God's power to all who know you. And, your dear Carter will never truly leave you - you will feel his presence in your family always. It will bring you comfort and peace.
God bless you both.
-Lois (a friend of Grandma Cheryl's)
Sarah, I can't start to feel your pain. My heart goes out to you and Gary, as well as the rest of your family. Grandparents hurt also especially when we see our children hurting. I will continue to pray for all of you.
Could you maybe just take a min. and visualize Carter resting and smiling in the arms of Jesus. Maybe that vision would help for a while. In my prayers your friend Jerri, from the office of FCC, Trenton.
Sarah:
I thank you for letting us know that our comments help you heal, as much as checking in on you and Gary helps us heal. Everyone who checks this loves you, Gary and Carter so much. I see posts on here from people you've never met, and people as close to you as your sisters. This webpage, and knowing that it at least somewhat helps you and Gary heal makes us feel a little less helpless in this exceedingly difficult situation. I love you, and I'll see you very soon!!! Amy Currie
I check just about every day to read a new message. I am friends of the Heckman's in St. Joseph. You don't know me, but I wanted to tell you how much your story has touched me. I think we all assume that love is not supposed to hurt and sometimes it hurts so deep that we can't find our way out of that deep hole. I can't imagine the anguish you mush feel about losing your son. And for that, I pray that you find comfort - somehow. I just wanted to thank you for sharing your story and sharing your son's life with all of us. It has changed the way I view my own life and I thank you.
-Cathy G.
I can't imagine the pain and hurt you are going through. Please know that ya'll are in my prayers. God will bless you with something great.
Nice! Where you get this guestbook? I want the same script.. Awesome content. thankyou.
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Super color scheme, I like it! Good job. Go on.
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